It's funny the things you begin to remember about your childhood once you have your own child.
My husband and I have these moments, these little glimmers of our childhood and we sit there for a moment and really absorb it. Or we have the "do you remember" discussion. Although we are only 4 years apart in age it can sometimes feel like a decade! I believe it all depends on how you were brought up and of course GENDER!
Andrew will sometimes ask me about a truck, a war, or any numerous boy movies and I will have no clue what he is talking about! But then again I'm sure he does not know what/who polly pocket was!
There are some things from our childhoods that we adore and we are adamant that Noah will be brought up the same way. There are some things we have learnt as we have grown up and have chosen for our own lives and realise that it's not the way we want our children to live. Parenting is such an individual thing and I am not surprised that many couples find themselves fighting for the first time after a baby is born.
I'm going to probably be the only person in Australia with children putting their hand up and saying I did not buy a single thing in the toy sales. Not one. I didn't lay buy, I didn't purchase.. Nothing.
I sat there and read the catalogue, I viewed the toys online and then we decided not to purchase anything. Instead we decided to email our landlord and ask if we could put in a veggie patch.
Yes, It's exactly what a one year old would LOVE. A box of potential muddy veggies!
I guess for us, it was the beginning of realising that we NEEDED to be the parents we wanted to be!
When we were driving the other day I asked DH where he saw our future. We had been in discussion with our district manager about transferring to Maryborough (in the very far future). I had loved the idea as it's closer to home and there is the most amazing house in Maryborough that I house stalk!
Anyways.. I have this dream, I've always had this dream... Of a big house, with a big yard a long drive way a big tree with a tyre swing, lots of kids, a noisy dog, some chickens and maybe even a token duck!
Ever since moving to our new house I have been dreaming and dreaming and dreaming about moving and I couldn't figure out why. This house is lovely, it's all shiny and new but it's not a home that I want my children to run around muddy in! and I never thought I would say this but I love mud! I love the idea of children PLAYING! I don't dream of TV, and gadgets and the wiggles. I dream about camping around a fire, playing tag outside, running through fields to find creeks. Call me old fashioned but isn't that would childhood is meant to be like?
So even though we can't have a big farm house with a tyre swing I think a little veggie patch will suffice for now!!
I could write about this forever. There are so many things I need to get off my chest.. Private/Public schooling, TV for babies, Messy Babies, Sewing, Going back to work, Going back to Uni. But I have NO TIME!!!!!
One of these days I will have a day to just write :D
Sunday 24 June 2012
Saturday 19 May 2012
Have a break- Have a kit kat!
Well we are FINALLY in our new house! It was a pretty huge move and has knocked us all about a fair bit. The house is amazing and we are so glad to be here but we are all very tired!!
When we packed up our house at Laguna, Noah was at a stage where it didn't really bother him moving around etc. Now he is a lot more aware of everything going on and is not used to everything here and it's a bit full on.
When we packed up our house at Laguna, Noah was at a stage where it didn't really bother him moving around etc. Now he is a lot more aware of everything going on and is not used to everything here and it's a bit full on.
Everything seems to be getting on top of me at the moment and i've decided to put the diet/exercise on hold for a few days. Not that I have anything unhealthy in the house but not focusing on eating at set times, set meals, set calories. Ahhh It's hard to explain why I'm feeling the way I am. It could simply be because the house is messy and I just cannot possibly get it all done as soon as I want it done and it's frustrating. I finish one box and then I look up and there is a hundred more.
I'm going to indulge in a single tub of weight watchers chocolate mousse! Straighten my hair and read a book for the first time since before our little man arrived!
Blahhhhhh
Oh and I HATE reflux!!!
Oh and I HATE reflux!!!
Tuesday 15 May 2012
Learning to trust my body.
So the last few days whilst amping up my exercise routine i've had to really learn to trust my body.
This seems like a really silly concept but having gone through a horrible pregnancy and birth with Noah my body didn't really fill me with joy!
"Most" pregnancies are perfect. Yeah crampy and uncomfortable, yes you get bloated and hot and you sometimes get reflux for no reason. I call that the perfect pregnancy. My pregnancy with Noah on the other hand was filled with fear, pain and just waiting for the bad news to arrive. Each week that went past it got a little easier to relax and hold on to the hope that Noah would pull through.
I found out I was pregnant at 5 weeks after being admitted for what I thought was an allergic reaction to Tramadol. Although I am "officially" allergic to tramadol I also had morning sickness and didn't realise. Hence becoming dehydrated and in hospital! Morning sickness- Is totally normal for the first 12 weeks in a perfect pregnancy! But then at 8 weeks I had a major bleed. I had just been shopping with my mother and my 20 week pregnant sister when it happened. I ran to my mum and broke down in hysterics. She called my Husband and I cried and cried. He picked me up and we drove to the closest hospital. We were sitting in the waiting room for all of about 2 minutes before I was called up. I believe we were pushed to the front of the line because of my hysterical crying more than anything because once I got inside the doctor said that they will take bloods and organise an ultrasound for later in the week. Because it was so early they couldn't check for a heartbeat and the sonographer had gone home already. Again more tears. I just wanted to know if my baby was still with us!
Andrew and I drove home- In complete silence. I hopped into bed and I just wanted to disappear. I called my GP the next day and he got me a referral to see a private sonographer who could get me in that day. The hospital had still not called to book me in for a scan. Assuming that I had miscarried and really not wanting to deal with other people I headed to the ultrasound on my own.
She switched on the machine, put the gel on my belly and waved it around and there he was... This tiny little jelly bean with the most beautiful heart beat!
They did the scan free of charge and were just as happy as I was to see the good news! The second I was out of there I called Andrew and my mum and let them know. I was over the moon but so confused. Why would my body bleed when the baby is still there?
After seeing my GP he cleared up a few things. Firstly the bleed was a subchrionic hematoma. Mine was fairly large and my GP was quite concerned from that moment onwards at nearly 9 weeks I was on bed rest. At that stage I was allowed to potter around the house but no lifting, no long walks etc.
My morning sickness was, as those around me would recall, fairly epic! I was very sick. I was so sick I lost alot of weight even with being on bed rest and eating as much as possible. It was like a horrible dream that I just couldn't wake up from.
I had a few more bleeds before our wedding and then over did it at our wedding and had another big bleed which was all I could think about on our honeymoon. At around 23 weeks my doctor suggested I pack my hospital bag just in case I need to deliver Noah early. When I was told this, I freaked out. We were about to move to Mackay and I really had no idea what I would do if I gave birth to a very premature baby!
26 weeks came and I sighed a small breath of relief. Around 26 weeks is when they consider your baby, a baby and will fight for him/her! 30 weeks came as well and around this point I found a routine that worked, zofran was working better and I was taking it easy and getting stuck into my cross stitch. We had a few trips to the hospital for bleeding and braxton hicks but they were happy to just keep me on bed rest.
The next few weeks were "tight" Noah grew and grew and for once I felt pretty happy. He was frank breech so his head was in my ribs making things very uncomfortable. I had alot of horrible braxton hicks but nothing too bad. My birthday came and Noah was 37 weeks. I had a pretty full on night (for someone on bed rest!) The next 3 days were filled with epic braxton hicks which I ended up giving in to and ducking up to the hospital. Assuming we were just going to get checked over I packed a quick bag, put a load of washing on and didn't bother making the bed.
We arrived and I was checked out. (The rest is my birth story which is in another post)
Basically I had to have an emergency c-section with Andrew by my side and Noah was handed to us!
Finally safe and sound!
I think in reality the whole time he was on the inside I wasn't sure that he was going to make it and the second he was in my arms I knew I could take care of him, I could protect him.
Ahhh Anyways. Massive vent!
Friday 11 May 2012
We Bought A Zoo!!
Well not quite!
But I did get spoilt. While I was on holidays in Brisbane my AMAZING husband got us
the fridge that I was dying to have! I think I touched on it on a previous blog post but I
cannot rave enough about this fridge.
It's the Mitsubishi Multi-Drawer Fridge
http://www.mitsubishielectric.com.au/Mitsubishi_MR-E62S_Refrigerator.html
This is my "official" Mothers day present although we won't get it until we get into the new house!
Which is making me giddy with excitement about moving!
Yet again our house was delayed again! We got the phone call on the day we were meant to pick up the keys that they had been delayed AGAIN. So new updated date is the 18th of May.
I'm actually relatively okay with this as we've got a system in place for changing everything around over and over and over again. But needless to say we cannot wait to get into our new house!
Just hoping we are at least there for State of Origin!
Andrew has to go to Brisbane on Monday for a meeting and will get back Tuesday afternoon! Feels like forever and I cannot imagine how he felt when Noah and I went away for 8 days!
Hmmm What else...
Noah is doing GREAT! He's 5 months already. He keeps practicing sitting up on his own and gets annoyed when we try to lay him down. He loves kicking everything and is definitely better with his feet than his hands, although his hand eye co-ordination has improved a lot!
He was great on the flight down to Brisbane but the flight home was a different story! Basically everything that could go wrong on a flight did!
Anyways Noah and I have jumped into a health and fitness regime! Well Noah is being dragged along while Mummy exercises! Going for 1-2 hour walks daily, then a little cardio and a super healthy 1200 max calorie diet. I lost 2 kgs straight up (I call that coke weight!) and have stalled and haven't lost anything more but feel a lot stronger and healthier.
Anywho Noah is fast asleep so I should get dinner sorted!
Tah tah for now! HOPEFULLY my next post is from our new house!
But I did get spoilt. While I was on holidays in Brisbane my AMAZING husband got us
the fridge that I was dying to have! I think I touched on it on a previous blog post but I
cannot rave enough about this fridge.
It's the Mitsubishi Multi-Drawer Fridge
http://www.mitsubishielectric.com.au/Mitsubishi_MR-E62S_Refrigerator.html
This is my "official" Mothers day present although we won't get it until we get into the new house!
Which is making me giddy with excitement about moving!
Yet again our house was delayed again! We got the phone call on the day we were meant to pick up the keys that they had been delayed AGAIN. So new updated date is the 18th of May.
I'm actually relatively okay with this as we've got a system in place for changing everything around over and over and over again. But needless to say we cannot wait to get into our new house!
Just hoping we are at least there for State of Origin!
Andrew has to go to Brisbane on Monday for a meeting and will get back Tuesday afternoon! Feels like forever and I cannot imagine how he felt when Noah and I went away for 8 days!
Hmmm What else...
Noah is doing GREAT! He's 5 months already. He keeps practicing sitting up on his own and gets annoyed when we try to lay him down. He loves kicking everything and is definitely better with his feet than his hands, although his hand eye co-ordination has improved a lot!
He was great on the flight down to Brisbane but the flight home was a different story! Basically everything that could go wrong on a flight did!
Anyways Noah and I have jumped into a health and fitness regime! Well Noah is being dragged along while Mummy exercises! Going for 1-2 hour walks daily, then a little cardio and a super healthy 1200 max calorie diet. I lost 2 kgs straight up (I call that coke weight!) and have stalled and haven't lost anything more but feel a lot stronger and healthier.
Anywho Noah is fast asleep so I should get dinner sorted!
Tah tah for now! HOPEFULLY my next post is from our new house!
Sunday 6 May 2012
Date Night: Garage sale!
Sorry it's taken so long to post AGAIN!
Last weekend Andrew and I had a garage sale/markets date. It was fun but
somewhat of an epic fail. We had a plan, we had a list, we had moolah.
We bought almost nothing! Saturday it rained and rained! First time it had
rained in a long time so alot of garage sales weren't on any more. We headed
to a family fun day at the railway factory. I forget the name but it was actually
really interesting. Learnt how they made the railway lines and Noah was fascinated
with the disney princesses.
Then we headed to Box Lots a bulk buying store which was having a closing down sale.
Sea FM the radio station was there and the host asked if we would like to join the competition
to win a family pass to the circus which of course we said yes! A few hours later we were
driving to the Mirani house and I got a phone call saying we had won! I was a bit too
excited and had a cry *blame baby hormones still sorting themselves out!*
As excited as we were we soon realised we wouldn't be able to use them as I would be in Brisbane.
But oh well it was exciting while it lasted!
Then Sunday we went to the markets and again bought nothing until the very last minute. We found a stall that had Tupperware!!!!! I think tupperware collecting is the only hobby Andrew actually understands. I love tupperware! At the moment we are trying to collect the red modular mates! I love it!
We got over $200 worth of tupperware for $50 woo!
Now I need to rush it's 11pm and Noah is fast asleep! I'm in Brisbane at the moment with my family. My siblings had their school musical (Grease!) It was awesome! Noah had his needles :( and I got my hair done!! (Red head!!)
Oh and to no ones surprise..... THE HOUSE HAS BEEN DELAYED AGAIN!!!!
We are reluctant to move Wednesdays move in date as all we are waiting on now is the inspector but
Ahhhhh!!!
Hopefully my next post will be from our new house!
Last weekend Andrew and I had a garage sale/markets date. It was fun but
somewhat of an epic fail. We had a plan, we had a list, we had moolah.
We bought almost nothing! Saturday it rained and rained! First time it had
rained in a long time so alot of garage sales weren't on any more. We headed
to a family fun day at the railway factory. I forget the name but it was actually
really interesting. Learnt how they made the railway lines and Noah was fascinated
with the disney princesses.
Then we headed to Box Lots a bulk buying store which was having a closing down sale.
Sea FM the radio station was there and the host asked if we would like to join the competition
to win a family pass to the circus which of course we said yes! A few hours later we were
driving to the Mirani house and I got a phone call saying we had won! I was a bit too
excited and had a cry *blame baby hormones still sorting themselves out!*
As excited as we were we soon realised we wouldn't be able to use them as I would be in Brisbane.
But oh well it was exciting while it lasted!
Then Sunday we went to the markets and again bought nothing until the very last minute. We found a stall that had Tupperware!!!!! I think tupperware collecting is the only hobby Andrew actually understands. I love tupperware! At the moment we are trying to collect the red modular mates! I love it!
We got over $200 worth of tupperware for $50 woo!
Now I need to rush it's 11pm and Noah is fast asleep! I'm in Brisbane at the moment with my family. My siblings had their school musical (Grease!) It was awesome! Noah had his needles :( and I got my hair done!! (Red head!!)
Oh and to no ones surprise..... THE HOUSE HAS BEEN DELAYED AGAIN!!!!
We are reluctant to move Wednesdays move in date as all we are waiting on now is the inspector but
Ahhhhh!!!
Hopefully my next post will be from our new house!
Thursday 26 April 2012
Date Night: Success!
We had our very first "official" date night last Monday and it was awesome!!
Although we were both exhausted, and it was last minute we both made the effort to
make it a special night! We went to the shops and bought a (huge) roast, dessert and glass coke.
We decided to take some family photos as we only really had one or two of us together with Noah since he was born. So we spent the time the roast was in the oven making ourselves "pretty" and popped out into the yard at sunset to take some photos
All in all an excellent night! Really glad we did it!
Although we were both exhausted, and it was last minute we both made the effort to
make it a special night! We went to the shops and bought a (huge) roast, dessert and glass coke.
We decided to take some family photos as we only really had one or two of us together with Noah since he was born. So we spent the time the roast was in the oven making ourselves "pretty" and popped out into the yard at sunset to take some photos
After the photos, we sat down to a candle lit dinner. Somehow the topic of the music from our wedding came up. Sadly neither of us remembered the name of our first dance song so armed with my laptop we went searching. Having a laugh at all the memories these songs brought up!
Oh and then we sat down with our "roomies" and watched The Block! Our favourite show.
Oh and then we sat down with our "roomies" and watched The Block! Our favourite show.
All in all an excellent night! Really glad we did it!
Now I have a special date planned for Saturday and Sunday as Noah and I will be in Brisbane for the next two Mondays but it will be extra special and so much fun!
Lets just say we are getting our frugality on!!
Will update you all next week
xx
Tuesday 24 April 2012
The crazy little love handles!
Noah is 20 weeks old this Sunday! Twenty weeks!!!!!! WOW!!!
But this milestone has made me really think about what I have achieved....
I found a video of myself and my niece Lillia from 12 months ago! I was about 8 weeks
pregnant with Noah and 54kg! Granted I was far too skinny and was very sick but I looked
"good". Then I looked at myself now... and honestly I throw clothes on so I am "dressed"
but don't really care about how I look. (Sorry Husband!)
I'm too busy, too tired and heck I'm already married with a baby. I don't need to look good for anyone...
UMMMMMM.... Actually I need to look good.. For Me! (and for my poor husband!)
So as much as I want to say I look fine, I'll loose it eventually. I won't and I know it.
I had to work hard (and yes I did the wrong things to get there!) to get to 54kgs!
But now I know how amazing my body is.. I made a human! That's pretty darn cool!
I respect my body! And I want more kids so I won't be, being stupid this time!
Admittedly I eat fairly healthy. We love to cook and we rarely have processed foods or takeaway.
My older brother also got us hooked on Salads!
Anyways so although I eat fairly healthy meals I am a binge snacker! I love chocolate, crackers, lollies etc. I like eating! I think it's a boredom thing. Something to do while I spend my day singing to Noah!
I decided to sign up to the twelve week body transformation! Which means getting off my butt and exercising and cutting back the crap that I do eat and drinking alot more water!
SO
Bye bye coke!! :'( I will miss you... for now.. Then i'll get over you!!
See you later Junk Food. Might see you again at a party some where but you are no longer part of my diet!
I aim to walk as much as possible, to try new things, I will spend less time sitting on the computer and more time doing things. I may even learn to mow the lawn *Oh my husband will be so excited!*
I aim to drink 4 bottles of water a day! To most this is "easy" to me it sounds like i'm going to drown! I hate water and within a week I would probably have 1-2 glasses in total!
I aim to eat healthier and also to encourage others to eat healthier!
If anyone is wanting to join the 12WBT let me know! I'd love buddies!
But this milestone has made me really think about what I have achieved....
I found a video of myself and my niece Lillia from 12 months ago! I was about 8 weeks
pregnant with Noah and 54kg! Granted I was far too skinny and was very sick but I looked
"good". Then I looked at myself now... and honestly I throw clothes on so I am "dressed"
but don't really care about how I look. (Sorry Husband!)
I'm too busy, too tired and heck I'm already married with a baby. I don't need to look good for anyone...
UMMMMMM.... Actually I need to look good.. For Me! (and for my poor husband!)
So as much as I want to say I look fine, I'll loose it eventually. I won't and I know it.
I had to work hard (and yes I did the wrong things to get there!) to get to 54kgs!
But now I know how amazing my body is.. I made a human! That's pretty darn cool!
I respect my body! And I want more kids so I won't be, being stupid this time!
Admittedly I eat fairly healthy. We love to cook and we rarely have processed foods or takeaway.
My older brother also got us hooked on Salads!
Anyways so although I eat fairly healthy meals I am a binge snacker! I love chocolate, crackers, lollies etc. I like eating! I think it's a boredom thing. Something to do while I spend my day singing to Noah!
I decided to sign up to the twelve week body transformation! Which means getting off my butt and exercising and cutting back the crap that I do eat and drinking alot more water!
SO
Bye bye coke!! :'( I will miss you... for now.. Then i'll get over you!!
See you later Junk Food. Might see you again at a party some where but you are no longer part of my diet!
I aim to walk as much as possible, to try new things, I will spend less time sitting on the computer and more time doing things. I may even learn to mow the lawn *Oh my husband will be so excited!*
I aim to drink 4 bottles of water a day! To most this is "easy" to me it sounds like i'm going to drown! I hate water and within a week I would probably have 1-2 glasses in total!
I aim to eat healthier and also to encourage others to eat healthier!
If anyone is wanting to join the 12WBT let me know! I'd love buddies!
Sunday 22 April 2012
Every Crazy Little Thing You Do!
So it's no real secret that having a baby early in marriage or early in a relationship can put a "spanner in the works" so to speak. Trying to have a relationship and get to know each other as husband and wife with a screaming baby in between is incredibly hard!
One thing that someone said to me recently is that a good marriage takes work no matter how long you have been married. This gave me a lot more faith about our marriage and how we are both feeling. We have an excellent relationship- don't get me wrong- We love each other more than I could have ever imagined loving someone.
Anyways I found a website today that has inspired me! It's called www.thedatingdivas.com
There are hundreds of fantastic date ideas for couples and also for families! And it really shows that ALL relationships need work and that "Dating" is so important. So I sent a text to DH and asked if we could have a regular date night. Monday or Tuesday nights are our best bet purely because DH always has to work day shifts on those two days. But there will be some "dates" we will need to do on the weekends. For example the garage sale date, like a scavenger hunt for garage sale items. We love thrift stores and garage sales so it's perfect for us!
Also! On the "love" stuff... Our anniversary is coming up *eee* It's still a few months away but I have now realised how incredibly organised I need to be with a super unpredictable human being on my hip! Noah keeps me on my toes for the majority of the day so what normally took a few hours to organise can take up to a week! Especially if I want to get some much needed sleep!
I have a few ideas up my sleeve for our anniversary
One of which is a framed print of our vows **see below**
One thing that someone said to me recently is that a good marriage takes work no matter how long you have been married. This gave me a lot more faith about our marriage and how we are both feeling. We have an excellent relationship- don't get me wrong- We love each other more than I could have ever imagined loving someone.
Anyways I found a website today that has inspired me! It's called www.thedatingdivas.com
There are hundreds of fantastic date ideas for couples and also for families! And it really shows that ALL relationships need work and that "Dating" is so important. So I sent a text to DH and asked if we could have a regular date night. Monday or Tuesday nights are our best bet purely because DH always has to work day shifts on those two days. But there will be some "dates" we will need to do on the weekends. For example the garage sale date, like a scavenger hunt for garage sale items. We love thrift stores and garage sales so it's perfect for us!
Also! On the "love" stuff... Our anniversary is coming up *eee* It's still a few months away but I have now realised how incredibly organised I need to be with a super unpredictable human being on my hip! Noah keeps me on my toes for the majority of the day so what normally took a few hours to organise can take up to a week! Especially if I want to get some much needed sleep!
I have a few ideas up my sleeve for our anniversary
One of which is a framed print of our vows **see below**
Anyways Noah has now been in bed for 2 1/2 hours so I better join him in the land of the nod!
Hope everyone is well xx
Hope everyone is well xx
Friday 20 April 2012
Week 1 Photo Dump
I have decided to do a "photo a day" blog post but have 19 weeks to catch up on !! So will do a few posts for each week :)
WEEK ONE
11th December 2011-
17th December 2011
11th December 2011-
17th December 2011
11/12/2011
12/12/2011
13/12/2011
14/12/2011
15/12/2011
16/12/2011
17/12/2011
Friday 6 April 2012
Easter Photo Dump!
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Early morning trip to Sarina Beach
Fascinated by the plastic links
Noah loves playing in the mirror!
and his shiny turtle
Cheeky boy :)
Ipop and Noah :)
Cutie pie
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Mumma and Noah
Yeeeeee
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HAPPY EASTER!!
When you hold me, I can see this is exactly where I want to be...
I have found that there are some songs that can totally melt me.
Have a listen to this song....
This morning Noah and I woke up at our usual time of 5am, Noah was super happy. Smiling, giggling
and cooing. As I listened to this song I started to cry realising how truly blessed we are to be the parents of such a wonderful baby boy.
This week was an incredibly sad time for some of our friends. One of my beautiful friends babies grew his wings far too early at 29 weeks gestation. It breaks my heart and now one should ever have to experience that!
There is a story that I found a little while ago and it is so beautiful so I thought I would share.
What Makes A Mother-
It is definitely an eye opener when tragedy hits so close to home, makes you hold your family a whole lot tighter and realise how truly blessed we all are.
Noah and I decided to pop down to Brisbane for Easter as Andrew is working the weekend. The flight was harder than the previous flights i've done with Noah purely because he slept the whole drive to the airport but he still did great and the air hostesses were wonderful. Kept coming and talking to him and cooing :) I love this age! Strangers love that they can make him smile so they all try. When he smiles everyone gets excited.
I am very grateful that he is good on planes and just travelling in general. It's great to be able to pop down to Brisbane for the weekend. We hadn't told Emmily that we were coming to visit so when we arrived at Mums they told her to unpack the car :D SURPRISE :D It was so good to surprise her! We had been skyping every day while she is on holidays, it was so hard to keep the secret!
I love my family- extended family and all- so much! My cousin Tilly has her 21st Birthday today *woohoo* celebrating with an Alice in wonderland themed party tonight. And my Aunty Coralie is travelling to Vanuatu with her daughter (my cousin) Annie on a mission trip for 9 weeks! I hope they have safe travels and enjoy their time over there!
Hmm I can't think of any other news?!
Have a listen to this song....
Sally Seltmann- "Harmony to my heartbeat"
This morning Noah and I woke up at our usual time of 5am, Noah was super happy. Smiling, giggling
and cooing. As I listened to this song I started to cry realising how truly blessed we are to be the parents of such a wonderful baby boy.
This week was an incredibly sad time for some of our friends. One of my beautiful friends babies grew his wings far too early at 29 weeks gestation. It breaks my heart and now one should ever have to experience that!
There is a story that I found a little while ago and it is so beautiful so I thought I would share.
What Makes A Mother-
I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked, ’What makes a Mother?’ and I know I heard Him say,
A mother has a baby, this we know is true,
But God, can you be a mother when your baby’s not with you?
Yes you can, He replied, with confidence in His voice
I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime, others for a day
And some I send to feel your womb, but there’s no need to stay.
I just dont understand this Lord, I want my baby here!
He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear,
I wish that I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with the other children and say.
’We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mum who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly, my mummy set me free.
I miss my mummy oh so much, but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow’s where I lay,
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear,
Mummy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here’.
So you see, my dear sweet one, your children are ok,
Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they’ll stay.
They’ll wait for you with me, until your lesson’s through,
And on the day I call you home they’ll be at the gates for you.
So now you know what makes a mother.
It’s the feeling in your heart,
Its the love you had so much of, right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realise until their time is done,
Remember all the love you have,
And you ARE a special mum!It is definitely an eye opener when tragedy hits so close to home, makes you hold your family a whole lot tighter and realise how truly blessed we all are.
Noah and I decided to pop down to Brisbane for Easter as Andrew is working the weekend. The flight was harder than the previous flights i've done with Noah purely because he slept the whole drive to the airport but he still did great and the air hostesses were wonderful. Kept coming and talking to him and cooing :) I love this age! Strangers love that they can make him smile so they all try. When he smiles everyone gets excited.
I am very grateful that he is good on planes and just travelling in general. It's great to be able to pop down to Brisbane for the weekend. We hadn't told Emmily that we were coming to visit so when we arrived at Mums they told her to unpack the car :D SURPRISE :D It was so good to surprise her! We had been skyping every day while she is on holidays, it was so hard to keep the secret!
I love my family- extended family and all- so much! My cousin Tilly has her 21st Birthday today *woohoo* celebrating with an Alice in wonderland themed party tonight. And my Aunty Coralie is travelling to Vanuatu with her daughter (my cousin) Annie on a mission trip for 9 weeks! I hope they have safe travels and enjoy their time over there!
Hmm I can't think of any other news?!
We are still not into our new house but hopefully soon!!!! The realestate said on Tuesday 2-3 weeks and when we drove past yesterday it was being painted and airconditioners are in. Not long to go now!
I will do a photo dump on another post :D
Happy Easter Everyone!
I will do a photo dump on another post :D
Happy Easter Everyone!
Thursday 22 March 2012
Rain rain go away!
So much rain here lately! It is definitely feeling like a wet season now!
Honestly, I was wondering what everyone was whinging about when they said
that the wet season was awful! But Hello! The second last week of the "wet season"
and here it is! We have buckets under different parts of our house where the roof is leaking!
Andrew had to climb on the roof to check out what was going on! But the real adventure
was trying to figure out how to get back down!! Ahh So much fun!
This week has been pretty uneventful- Just packing, cleaning and more packing! We headed to Mackay yesterday to pick up some toys for Noah. We got a second hand jitter buggy (toy car) but he is way too small for it and also got a second hand Lamaze tummy time mat! He loves it! His cousin Evie has a similar one and he loved it when we visited so decided to get one!
Totally another day!----- I don't get much time to write on this blog but I find it really good to get out what i'm feeling and to reflect on how far we have come.
I had a bit of a mummy stress this week over Noahs development. He is perfect socially, in fact he is the most social baby I have ever met! He smiles and coos and talks to everyone and everything. But he just lays there- Unless he's feeling particularly gassy he will just lay there and coo. Funny how two short weeks ago I was so frustrated and upset with how sad he was and now i'm upset about how happy he is about not doing anything! But in comparison to babies around his age he wasn't very "mobile" He hated toys. Every toy I showed him he would cry at, he would even freak out and bury his face into my chest if I put him in front of a mirror. So this week was definitely "Operation Play Time". I pulled out every toy we had in the house and figured out what he did and didn't like. Noah LOVES faces, he loves singing (especially the animal sounds song!), He liked looking at lights, he loves the breeze and fresh air and the sound of rain.
So with this- I tried to find toys Noah liked. He hated the vibrating bird, he hated the crinkly elephant, he hated the bright colour frog. BUT I finally found something he liked- Those plastic links. I went out and bought more and clipped them everywhere. He grabs them, sings to them, puts them in his mouth. I never thought encouraging your child to play would be so difficult. Most people (everyone I have talked to) has told me to chill out, enjoy him but I was at a complete loss at to why Noah just hated toys. At the moment I believe that the toys are just over stimulating and a bit much especially after a day of music and walking.
I plan on spending a bit more "quiet" time encouraging playing and hopefully *fingers crossed* he starts loving toys!
Noah is getting so much better at sitting up! He has his bumbo but we also spend time without it and seeing how long he can sit up on his own for. :D He is still very chatty! And just so incredibly amazing. I cannot begin to explain to the love I have for him- A love that only a mother could ever understand.
There is this quote, "Making the decision to have a child in momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body."
This is so true. And I will never be the same- Andrew and I will never be the same. I never thought 12 short months ago that Andrew and I would be sitting here having an disagreement over Boys Brigade Vs Soccer! Or Private vs public schooling, or when is the right time to start swimming lessons. Twelve short months ago it was all about "us" and Now it is all about Noah! And it feels AMAZING!
ANYWAYS- Enough bragging about my little man!
We are all packed ready for our move tomorrow! The removalist picks up our things at lunch tomorrow and then we are here for two days (It was partially furnished so we will still have beds etc) while we clean and then staying in Sarina with other managers while we wait for our house to be finished. We were given the 25th of March for a move in date but unfortunately it looks like it will be delayed due to the heavy rainfall we had in the last few days.
But we CANNOT wait to move into our new place!! In the past week we've had "fun" at Laguna- Lots of flooding, The roof at our front door has decided to leak and start cracking!, the power went out quite a few times and the gas ran out *fun!* I kept saying to Andrew it was like very expensive camping! But honestly I will really miss this house. It is such an experience and you really have to live here to realise how magical it is :)
OHHHHHH!! Cannot forget to add! Andrew and I switched off the lights to hop into bed And Stood in AWE of fireflies! Yes real life fireflies! They were covering our windows with their beautiful lights :) We have been here for 6 months and that is the first time we have seen them :)
Anyways what alot of rambling :)
Thanks for reading
xx
Honestly, I was wondering what everyone was whinging about when they said
that the wet season was awful! But Hello! The second last week of the "wet season"
and here it is! We have buckets under different parts of our house where the roof is leaking!
Andrew had to climb on the roof to check out what was going on! But the real adventure
was trying to figure out how to get back down!! Ahh So much fun!
This week has been pretty uneventful- Just packing, cleaning and more packing! We headed to Mackay yesterday to pick up some toys for Noah. We got a second hand jitter buggy (toy car) but he is way too small for it and also got a second hand Lamaze tummy time mat! He loves it! His cousin Evie has a similar one and he loved it when we visited so decided to get one!
Totally another day!----- I don't get much time to write on this blog but I find it really good to get out what i'm feeling and to reflect on how far we have come.
I had a bit of a mummy stress this week over Noahs development. He is perfect socially, in fact he is the most social baby I have ever met! He smiles and coos and talks to everyone and everything. But he just lays there- Unless he's feeling particularly gassy he will just lay there and coo. Funny how two short weeks ago I was so frustrated and upset with how sad he was and now i'm upset about how happy he is about not doing anything! But in comparison to babies around his age he wasn't very "mobile" He hated toys. Every toy I showed him he would cry at, he would even freak out and bury his face into my chest if I put him in front of a mirror. So this week was definitely "Operation Play Time". I pulled out every toy we had in the house and figured out what he did and didn't like. Noah LOVES faces, he loves singing (especially the animal sounds song!), He liked looking at lights, he loves the breeze and fresh air and the sound of rain.
So with this- I tried to find toys Noah liked. He hated the vibrating bird, he hated the crinkly elephant, he hated the bright colour frog. BUT I finally found something he liked- Those plastic links. I went out and bought more and clipped them everywhere. He grabs them, sings to them, puts them in his mouth. I never thought encouraging your child to play would be so difficult. Most people (everyone I have talked to) has told me to chill out, enjoy him but I was at a complete loss at to why Noah just hated toys. At the moment I believe that the toys are just over stimulating and a bit much especially after a day of music and walking.
I plan on spending a bit more "quiet" time encouraging playing and hopefully *fingers crossed* he starts loving toys!
Noah is getting so much better at sitting up! He has his bumbo but we also spend time without it and seeing how long he can sit up on his own for. :D He is still very chatty! And just so incredibly amazing. I cannot begin to explain to the love I have for him- A love that only a mother could ever understand.
There is this quote, "Making the decision to have a child in momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body."
This is so true. And I will never be the same- Andrew and I will never be the same. I never thought 12 short months ago that Andrew and I would be sitting here having an disagreement over Boys Brigade Vs Soccer! Or Private vs public schooling, or when is the right time to start swimming lessons. Twelve short months ago it was all about "us" and Now it is all about Noah! And it feels AMAZING!
ANYWAYS- Enough bragging about my little man!
We are all packed ready for our move tomorrow! The removalist picks up our things at lunch tomorrow and then we are here for two days (It was partially furnished so we will still have beds etc) while we clean and then staying in Sarina with other managers while we wait for our house to be finished. We were given the 25th of March for a move in date but unfortunately it looks like it will be delayed due to the heavy rainfall we had in the last few days.
But we CANNOT wait to move into our new place!! In the past week we've had "fun" at Laguna- Lots of flooding, The roof at our front door has decided to leak and start cracking!, the power went out quite a few times and the gas ran out *fun!* I kept saying to Andrew it was like very expensive camping! But honestly I will really miss this house. It is such an experience and you really have to live here to realise how magical it is :)
OHHHHHH!! Cannot forget to add! Andrew and I switched off the lights to hop into bed And Stood in AWE of fireflies! Yes real life fireflies! They were covering our windows with their beautiful lights :) We have been here for 6 months and that is the first time we have seen them :)
Anyways what alot of rambling :)
Thanks for reading
xx
Monday 12 March 2012
Happy Three Months!! + Photo Dump
HAPPY Three Months Noah!
I had to underline, highlight and put the word HAPPY in all capitals as Noahs "3 month" Birthday
was a very happy day!! I am still buzzing now!
For the past 13 weeks I have been feeling like we were running up a hill. Each day was a little easier, but never nice, never happy! But yesterday we had an amazing day!
Yesterday was the first time, I hopped into bed and thought WOW i'm a Mum and a successful one at that!
Noah has always been a very unsettled baby, It's hard to even explain it to people because I always got the "babies cry" comments, or advice on colic and soothing babies. I can honestly say we tried everything!! Every medicine, every massage, showers, walking everything!
He was a great night time sleeper- so we were very lucky with that! But between 5am and 7pm he cried. Most days it would be 10-11 hours of crying during the day unless we drove, or walked or sat in the shower. It was exhausting!!
But yesterday at 7am we noticed a change. We woke up and were shocked at the time. We then heard Noah through the monitor cooing- Surely this was not our child, happily laying in bed? We went to his room and sure enough there he was happily cooing and looking at the monitor? I thought to myself- Ahh we are in for hell today if he's happy now... But come lunch time I realised we had, had no tears. I had made lunch, put out the washing and barely had to carry Noah at all. He was happy under the play gym, or in the pram watching me put the washing out. Come dinner time he cooed at me while I made dinner and I sang to him and we found a few songs on you tube he liked. After we had a shower, and dinner. He was fast asleep. I then sat in bed- In a bit of a shock. What had just happened??
Two days ago we had started giving Noah an extra formula feed in the morning. We have no idea whether he is just growing up or whether the extra feed helped but either way we are ecstatic!!!
It has really changed our whole view of the world. We aren't getting any more sleep than we were before but there is no tension in the house, no bickering, nothing. We realised today when Andrew left for his toastmasters class that we hadn't turned the TV on at all. Normally we have it on as background noise to all the screaming!
Today has been just as good as yesterday!! I've been worried about Noah not being interested in hitting things or looking at his feet etc. I have been told numerous times that he is fine but I don't think anyone could ever tell a mother not to worry! Today I held some toys up to him and jiggled them around and tah dah he smacked it- I squealed and he did it again. Then he got fed up- but it was enough for me to know that I'm on the right track :)
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I had to underline, highlight and put the word HAPPY in all capitals as Noahs "3 month" Birthday
was a very happy day!! I am still buzzing now!
For the past 13 weeks I have been feeling like we were running up a hill. Each day was a little easier, but never nice, never happy! But yesterday we had an amazing day!
Yesterday was the first time, I hopped into bed and thought WOW i'm a Mum and a successful one at that!
Noah has always been a very unsettled baby, It's hard to even explain it to people because I always got the "babies cry" comments, or advice on colic and soothing babies. I can honestly say we tried everything!! Every medicine, every massage, showers, walking everything!
He was a great night time sleeper- so we were very lucky with that! But between 5am and 7pm he cried. Most days it would be 10-11 hours of crying during the day unless we drove, or walked or sat in the shower. It was exhausting!!
But yesterday at 7am we noticed a change. We woke up and were shocked at the time. We then heard Noah through the monitor cooing- Surely this was not our child, happily laying in bed? We went to his room and sure enough there he was happily cooing and looking at the monitor? I thought to myself- Ahh we are in for hell today if he's happy now... But come lunch time I realised we had, had no tears. I had made lunch, put out the washing and barely had to carry Noah at all. He was happy under the play gym, or in the pram watching me put the washing out. Come dinner time he cooed at me while I made dinner and I sang to him and we found a few songs on you tube he liked. After we had a shower, and dinner. He was fast asleep. I then sat in bed- In a bit of a shock. What had just happened??
Two days ago we had started giving Noah an extra formula feed in the morning. We have no idea whether he is just growing up or whether the extra feed helped but either way we are ecstatic!!!
It has really changed our whole view of the world. We aren't getting any more sleep than we were before but there is no tension in the house, no bickering, nothing. We realised today when Andrew left for his toastmasters class that we hadn't turned the TV on at all. Normally we have it on as background noise to all the screaming!
Today has been just as good as yesterday!! I've been worried about Noah not being interested in hitting things or looking at his feet etc. I have been told numerous times that he is fine but I don't think anyone could ever tell a mother not to worry! Today I held some toys up to him and jiggled them around and tah dah he smacked it- I squealed and he did it again. Then he got fed up- but it was enough for me to know that I'm on the right track :)
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My little superman was tired!
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Having a little flash back to when Noah was just two days old. :) Reminds me of how far we have come!
He loves his pram! And chilling out! :)
Asleep on our walk around Laguna
We decided to do fulltime cloth nappies this week!
And I couldn't resist buying a purple one!.jpeg)
BUMBO!!!!
Noah at 3 months and 1 day! :D Not a baby anymore!
It is truly amazing how big he is getting!
Happy monkey!!
And a VIDEO! :)
Saturday 10 March 2012
A day in a status update
High five! Noah slept 11 hours last night before I had to wake him up!
Woohoo Christmas Tree arrived! It’s
amazing- Is it too early to put it up?
I think it’s incredible how many people speed!! Ughhh
Whoops forgot I bought Ice at the servo. At least I now have a reason to clean the car (A better reason than just keeping it clean!)
Ahh felt ridiculous taking Noah to the hospital for sleeping too much! That’s meant to be a good thing right? Haha Poor tike has a virus!!
Ahhh The powers gone out AGAIN!!! Errrrgoooonnnn
Lol forgot I had my husbands phone and sent
him a text. Felt a bit silly when the phone went off beside me!
Mumma bear is feeling soooo drowsy!!
Chai latte + Caesar salad WIN!!
Dear Noah I do not want to spend your
entire tummy time flipping you back over- only to have you whinge every time
you roll!!
Gees Noahs feet get cold!! Burrrr*
Ahhh Noah
fell asleep two hours before bedtime Waa!!!
You know you have an addiction to purple when every internet shopping site you go on you type in purple in their search just to see what they have J
You know you have an addiction to purple when every internet shopping site you go on you type in purple in their search just to see what they have J
Had a random "I MISS MY BELLY"
moment tonight looking at my old pregnancy photos J
Yay Noah is asleep Wth was that??!!
Night all xx
Night all xx
Friday 9 March 2012
It could've been worse
Three things I say alot now that i'm a mum
I say these three lines so much but it really became clear today when we lost power.
It was just so hard without the power- Now as a mum things become alot harder and who ever tries to convince you otherwise either had a tribe to help bring up their kids or hasn't had kids. It is HARD! It is hard emotionally and physically. Having a child in mentally draining- Instead of thinking about just you or just you and your husband, you are now solely responsible for a living being and not just any living being a completely helpless one. When we lost power today so much went through my head.
How do I boil water? How do I do the washing? How do I give my baby a warm shower (Gas hot water that needs electricity to start it!) What do I do if my phone charge runs out? How do I keep my child cool? A million things ran through my head, but prior to Noah the only thing about losing power that bothered me was the inability to go on Facebook.
It could've been worse- And it could have.
It could've been hotter, It could've been raining, It could've been the middle of the night, Andrew could've been at work. Alot of "could haves"run through my mind.
Again another mummy thing- Once I had Noah I worry about what could have happened. Not the nicest thing to dwell on! As a human being we all make mistakes but I have REALLY noticed them now that i'm a mum. If you burnt your own mouth you would say "ouch that was stupid" and move on. If you burn your babies mouth you cry, you critique yourself, you feel like your baby will never forgive you.. Must admit I haven't burnt my babies mouth. But I buckled his belly into the car seat OUCH! I have forgotten to put insect repellent on and we are both now walking around with mosquito hickies. I have done many things that ordinarily you wouldn't blink an eyelid to but when it's your child It seems like the worst thing in the world. Every person I saw today I would have to announce that the bites were mosquitos and yes I am stupid for going walking at sunset!
Sometimes It could have been worse is a good thing- Helps you realise you are doing the right thing.
BUT he's so damn cute! Oh boy!! This kid knows how to make his mummy so happy!
We went shopping and he smiled at everyone walking by- Strangely that makes me so proud. My baby is so happy and it feels AMAZING!! So regardless of how much I worry, how much I stress about how he is doing developmentally- He can smile and that smile means more to me than any grasp reflex :)
Anyways as I was writing this the power went out for another hour *fun* but seems to be back for now :)
xx
It's just so hard
It could've been worse
But he's so damn cute
I say these three lines so much but it really became clear today when we lost power.
It was just so hard without the power- Now as a mum things become alot harder and who ever tries to convince you otherwise either had a tribe to help bring up their kids or hasn't had kids. It is HARD! It is hard emotionally and physically. Having a child in mentally draining- Instead of thinking about just you or just you and your husband, you are now solely responsible for a living being and not just any living being a completely helpless one. When we lost power today so much went through my head.
How do I boil water? How do I do the washing? How do I give my baby a warm shower (Gas hot water that needs electricity to start it!) What do I do if my phone charge runs out? How do I keep my child cool? A million things ran through my head, but prior to Noah the only thing about losing power that bothered me was the inability to go on Facebook.
It could've been worse- And it could have.
It could've been hotter, It could've been raining, It could've been the middle of the night, Andrew could've been at work. Alot of "could haves"run through my mind.
Again another mummy thing- Once I had Noah I worry about what could have happened. Not the nicest thing to dwell on! As a human being we all make mistakes but I have REALLY noticed them now that i'm a mum. If you burnt your own mouth you would say "ouch that was stupid" and move on. If you burn your babies mouth you cry, you critique yourself, you feel like your baby will never forgive you.. Must admit I haven't burnt my babies mouth. But I buckled his belly into the car seat OUCH! I have forgotten to put insect repellent on and we are both now walking around with mosquito hickies. I have done many things that ordinarily you wouldn't blink an eyelid to but when it's your child It seems like the worst thing in the world. Every person I saw today I would have to announce that the bites were mosquitos and yes I am stupid for going walking at sunset!
Sometimes It could have been worse is a good thing- Helps you realise you are doing the right thing.
BUT he's so damn cute! Oh boy!! This kid knows how to make his mummy so happy!
We went shopping and he smiled at everyone walking by- Strangely that makes me so proud. My baby is so happy and it feels AMAZING!! So regardless of how much I worry, how much I stress about how he is doing developmentally- He can smile and that smile means more to me than any grasp reflex :)
Anyways as I was writing this the power went out for another hour *fun* but seems to be back for now :)
xx
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